I miss him even more today. Everyday that goes by doesn't take the sting away. I actually had a dream last night that I was dreaming in it and I saw him. He was just laughing and smiling at me. I miss that smile - always there and just so happy. In my dream I knew it wasn't real and I so badly didn't want to wake up because I would lose him and that smile again. And then I woke up in my dream - and it hurt. No-it ached and I missed him so much. Feels like everyday to me.......and I just don't know when it gets better.